I brought my soapbox to work day....

So I think I'm in the mood to post all of the random thoughts floating through my head since 5 a.m. today. There have been so many and I want to journal, but I am nowhere near my pen and journal... so here we go.

[P.S. - I'm a little spunky today -- firey perhaps? I brought my soapbox to work today ;)]

Jobs/Careers/Life stuff
: If I could have any job in the world and it were possible, I would travel through time. I would visit everywhere and everything from the very beginning to the current and report back to the current society my findings. =)

:I don't know what I want to 'do' in terms of a particular position or job title. I have life goals and life dreams I want to accomplish and because they vary so greatly I suppose I want to find a job that will push me in those directions, teach me things I should know and that, ideally, I enjoy. If I could find a career doing things I enjoy doing... ;) that would be what I want to do.

:Dear Careerbuilder/Monster/HotJobs/Other Job sites, I do not know what my desired job title is.... Can I search by desired responsibilities or qualifications?

: Finding a job is a job in and of itself. I have sent out a number of resumes and cover letters. It is exhausting. Seriously, unless you have gone through the process it is exhausting. Hand me those monotonous applications you fill out for PT/FT retail/restaurant work any day -- those are so much simpler.

Denny's Free Breakfast
: Flashbacks to high school -- there is this smell of cigarettes... this nasty smell that takes me back to the crisp cold mornings at Sickles HS... walking past the bathrooms and that one guy on the bus. It's not every cigarette. It's this distinct smell. It makes me sick to my stomach. I was very close to hurling when we were standing in front of the lobby doors.

: I stood in line for 30 min surrounded by high schoolers skipping school to get free breakfast... boys talking about crazy stuff -- flashbacks.

: As my dad said, you got there at 6:30am for breakfast?! Really Brittany? You wanted it that bad? No... not the breakfast... the experience ;)

: People had the audacity to NOT tip their servers!! I watched it happen! My friend and I stared in disbelief as the group of kids next to us crammed at least 6 of themselves into the booth, then got up and walked out of the restaurant. Someone had left 5 dollars and the others were mad and kept telling the last girl to take it and put it in her back pocket.

: Those servers are going to work the most intense 8 hour shift in probably weeks --- grrrrr! people better not stiff them!

: I hope if the homeless make their way to Denny's that Denny's honors them as patrons. They are humans and I think that is the only qualification on the special. In fact, I doubt it says that (it's just understood you cannot bring pets into dining facilities).

: How does that even work? Can McDonald's and other venues who 'reserve the right to refuse service' really refuse service to someone because they are not dressed like everyone else, have the same life position as others or perhaps smell as clean? I mean, really? And if you are the manager or employee that enforces that rule -- spoken or unspoken -- how do you even do that? What could you possibly say that would not rob someone of their dignity? Because if it comes down to making other people feel uncomfortable then some construction working gentlemen need to be evaluated, cause when I go inside some places I feel like a piece of meat. Ugh.


Random Fun/Activities
: I'm kind of excited about the bonfire Thursday night @ SEU on Dalbow... I'll be parking MY car over where Bethany's Mobile Park was ;)

: I should go to the fair before I leave -- it's this weekend

: What should I pack for NYC? One of my love hate relationships with the city: the pressure to always look great. *sigh* I know I used to be dressed to the nines all of the time -- but then I discovered a life where clothes and everyone's opinions didn't matter.... it was so freeeeeing. Dressing up is so much more fun when it's for yourself and not cause you feel obligated. That being said what shall I take with me?

: I can't remember what to wear in the cold?
: Do I take [--] much stuff in a free carryon or pay $15 to take [------] stuff? hmmm...
: If I hear 'uh huh' one more time... agh!
: I'm not as angry as this blog may sound. Although I am very very tired.

: Coffee.... okay so I love Dunkin Donut's Iced Coffees. *Heavenly music plays at just the thought* It tastes so good. I've never had a bad cup. It's so inexpensive. And it's so good. And it's fast. I never realized how important that last fact was, it is fast. Today I waited in line at Starbucks drive thru for 10+ min for a latte. An expensive, hit-or-miss latte. What was I thinking? I wasn't. By the time I returned from my zoning out while in line I realized how much time had passed and it was too late to leave. I needed coffee and I had [-] time to get to work. =) I left with a bitter taste in my mouth -- literally. The White Mocha was a miss today. So I have come up with a plan on my coffee needs as of 2/3/2009:

: If I am looking to be social and around people and/or it is past 10 p.m. and/or I want a neutral place to hangout I shall choose Starbucks for its ability to entertain amounts of people.

: If I am looking for a caffeine pick me up and/or don't want to spend money and/or I want something delicious and quick I shall choose Dunkin Donuts coffee.

: If I am looking for a caffeine pick me up and/or I do not want to spend money and/or I want something pretty good and quick and/or I want something semi-good for me I shall choose McDonald's Sugar Free Vanilla Iced Coffee.

: I painted my nails purple yesterday and everytime I look at them they make me happy! They're electrifying!

: I did not watch Gossip Girl last night =\ but I did have a lot of fun at Macaroni Grill. They have my favorite Tomato Basil Soup and Garden Salad. *sigh*

: I will not live the rest of my life on a stinkin' diet. This lie that it is normal to live on a diet is a lie. We should not kid ourselves... it is not anymore healthy to live a life obsessed by food. If all I think about all day the 'diet' I am sticking to I am slave to a diet. I am a slave to food. If I'm a slave to anything it should not be food. Don't misread what I am saying, I want to be healthy. But I think healthy means more than following a fad, I want to be healthy in my spirit, body and my mind. *sigh* I want to be a slim fit chick. But I refuse to live the next 60 years of my life on a permanent 'diet' lifestyle where I am terrified to eat chocolate or look at a food the wrong way because it might implant itself onto me. I'd rather just stay active and run everyday.

: Maybe that sounds crazy... I don't know. Being fit is important, but I don't want to live my life for the soul purpose of being 'fit' by 'American' standards established by media.

Okay Okay Okay... OKAY! I am done for now. I need to stretch and go back to my apartment searching on Google Earth. Thanks for letting me rant.

XOXO
B.